I'd lie

	Sunday, September 21, 2008 @ 3:30 PM Is this how a five-year relationship's gonna end? 2002 (or 2003 to be exact) till now. Retreats, camps, outings.Is this how everything's gonna end?Look, I'm sorry.Does this help?I forgot the number of times I've said sorry.(But I remember the number of times I've hurt you.) You know, I don't know what to say anymore.This is that kind of time when words can't help no more.It was harder than I expected.Way harder.And we all know there's only one solution to this all.Am I going to try? Am I?I, who created all these problems, will I do it?I don't know.I don't know who I am anymore.I'm sorry. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________ For Keepsake's by j. dedicated to ME: (sharontan, remember these and never do the same thing again. remember how sweet he was.) Night shall not have mercy taken upon, for her mercy has never been taken upon others. Her blood flows cold, but her heart beats colder. Throughout the course of time, she has shown itself to be the failing of men. Temptations beyond our wildest imaginations she brings, unspeakable secrets she forces us to keep. Do we recognise her guise? Of course. Yet we continue to sink in deeper. Now we lie gasping for breath, for light's sweet embrace. At long last, she arrives, but too long gone we are. We've slipped beneath the waves, down to the deepest depths. Where light has never set foot, for darkness stays here. Hopefully, she will never leave. For Keepsake's II by j. I could get lost in those eyes. As black as night they are. The glint of cold silver or pooling tears? One would never know. Entangled in that hair. Nothing more than a mess of fine lines. Get in and you won't ever get out. Caught up beyond one's wildest horror. That smooth skin. Like silk to the touch it is, But those who do, never leave. Eternally bonded, far from the reaches of sanity and reason. Nothing shall free those souls, Save for any shred of free will left within. God bless them all. Run NOW! For she is coming. Do not let her gaze upon you, nor stand still to be ensnared. Control yourself, lest you be bonded eternally. Overwhelming logic shall triumph in the face of temptation. Or so we hope. Hide yourself in preparation. Arm yourself. The only way a creature like that may be fought and beaten, Is by being likewise. Fight fire with fire, and water with water. Be cold, empty, heartless, For only then will you be an equal. But ask yourself - Is it worth it? To lose your humanity, and be so till the end of time? Would you rather not... Be more human than anyone has ever been? Fill her emptiness with the emotion of your own? Heal the kinks and troubles in her life? And to remove the past memories which made her so? I would. God bless you. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________ That was 2006.Oh, so sweet and merry.And things just spiraled downwards, didn't they? For once, I felt certain wetness in my eyes.The wetness that never came since the ends of time.But they don't help anymore, do they.	Sunday, September 21, 2008 @ 3:30 PM Is this how a five-year relationship's gonna end? 2002 (or 2003 to be exact) till now. Retreats, camps, outings.Is this how everything's gonna end?Look, I'm sorry.Does this help?I forgot the number of times I've said sorry.(But I remember the number of times I've hurt you.) You know, I don't know what to say anymore.This is that kind of time when words can't help no more.It was harder than I expected.Way harder.And we all know there's only one solution to this all.Am I going to try? Am I?I, who created all these problems, will I do it?I don't know.I don't know who I am anymore.I'm sorry. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________ For Keepsake's by j. dedicated to ME: (sharontan, remember these and never do the same thing again. remember how sweet he was.) Night shall not have mercy taken upon, for her mercy has never been taken upon others. Her blood flows cold, but her heart beats colder. Throughout the course of time, she has shown itself to be the failing of men. Temptations beyond our wildest imaginations she brings, unspeakable secrets she forces us to keep. Do we recognise her guise? Of course. Yet we continue to sink in deeper. Now we lie gasping for breath, for light's sweet embrace. At long last, she arrives, but too long gone we are. We've slipped beneath the waves, down to the deepest depths. Where light has never set foot, for darkness stays here. Hopefully, she will never leave. For Keepsake's II by j. I could get lost in those eyes. As black as night they are. The glint of cold silver or pooling tears? One would never know. Entangled in that hair. Nothing more than a mess of fine lines. Get in and you won't ever get out. Caught up beyond one's wildest horror. That smooth skin. Like silk to the touch it is, But those who do, never leave. Eternally bonded, far from the reaches of sanity and reason. Nothing shall free those souls, Save for any shred of free will left within. God bless them all. Run NOW! For she is coming. Do not let her gaze upon you, nor stand still to be ensnared. Control yourself, lest you be bonded eternally. Overwhelming logic shall triumph in the face of temptation. Or so we hope. Hide yourself in preparation. Arm yourself. The only way a creature like that may be fought and beaten, Is by being likewise. Fight fire with fire, and water with water. Be cold, empty, heartless, For only then will you be an equal. But ask yourself - Is it worth it? To lose your humanity, and be so till the end of time? Would you rather not... Be more human than anyone has ever been? Fill her emptiness with the emotion of your own? Heal the kinks and troubles in her life? And to remove the past memories which made her so? I would. God bless you. ____________________________________________________________________________________________________ That was 2006.Oh, so sweet and merry.And things just spiraled downwards, didn't they? For once, I felt certain wetness in my eyes.The wetness that never came since the ends of time.But they don't help anymore, do they.
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