dedicated to my friends in vj:

Well, after the literature paper on Wednesday, the 4 years of vj life has ended (apart from bio mcq, which nobody cares), and it's perhaps time to reflect about these fateful 4 years, which I've undoubtedly grown and learned the most throughout my 18 years.

It's probably already irrelevant now as to why I entered vj although I stay at the other side of the island, and also probably irrelevant as to whether I've ever regretted entering vj. And all I can now to the 2 most commonly posed questions throughout the 4 years is, yes, I did regretted but there's no point regretting a decision made so long ago, and while it is true that these 4 years have been hell, tired and heart-wrenching, there are obviously heavenly moments as well. Things always come together don't they? If you have never ever experienced sorrow, you will not know the joy of joy.

So, 4 years ago (almost), I entered vip in a totally naive mind, not knowing what I want, not knowing anything, and just dashing into it, cause everyone told me to. And well, be it cultural shock (sounds weird) or whatsoever, I really didn't like vj initially. But well, things happen and yeah, osvot became the most united ip class till now :D So thank you very much, osvot for being there these 4 years, especially andrea andrew bryan pig yeo and kevin and sheng chow (though friendships do drift apart, and I'll think about how to resolve this after this post). Perhaps it's the feeling that no matter what hell you're in, you're never alone, and that keeps people going. And of course, there's always the occasional breaks that I give myself when I felt I deserve it (which is so often), and then there's always andrea to thank to let me photocopy her notes throughout the 2 years, so much so that a majority of my file is her notes. :P So that two years, have just been cruising along, slacking, truly enjoying learning, and having fun. There wasn't any cca commitments (because I really didn't care about infocomm) and there wasn't anything to be responsible about (oh, I just remembered I was osvot's secretary for ip2 and that was nice to, shall elaborate later), everything was purely fun.

And before I conclude the life of these 2 years, there's probably something else I need to add, that dominated that 2 years of my ip life. It's something that I haven't been honestly admitting and something that has just been buried and hidden away since a long time ago, but after yesterday, I guess I can conclude that we can start being friends again, so everything's over. Well, all I have to say is...apart from academics, if there's something that made me learn the most in the 2 years, it's that relationship. Well, we had joy, we had fun, and yeah, no matter what happened, it's time to embrace the past, smile at it when you think about it, and be friends again. (:

Okay, with that, the 2 fun years where we had T33 as our classroom is over, and we became nomads, migrating from one classroom to another, and that's S33 for you. Well, similarly, I have to say that initially I really didn't like the class as well. Perhaps it's the responsibility as a CT rep, or perhaps it's just the linger of ing moments osvot in my mind that makes S33 never good enough, but well, S33 and osvot was really different, and being a leader in osvot was pure fun, while being a leader in S33 is bittersweet. So there was all the complaints about how the class wasn't taking the "class spirit" into their hands and leaving it to all to me to be complained at and to take charge. But well, we improved and yeah, I really do have great friends in S33 (: And escape was fun as well. Okay, here, a thank you to S33, especially joanne, shermaine, leanne, zhiyang, chongwai, nicholas :D

And then, in the fateful jc years, of course, there was a hell lot of other things other than the class to worry about: ct council, harmonica, wushu, nav, nuh, new hope, church, etc. The combination of everything impended everything else from progressing, and life was just simply persevering on, and going on everyday, hoping to be recharged, hoping to take a break soon, and just telling myself, everything will be over soon. And now reflecting back, it's certainly right of me not wanting any leadership positions in ip, after having a taste in secondary school. It's tiring, though you undoubtedly learn a lot from there.

So, starting with ct council. Being an exco member in ct was seriously hell and heaven. I so much wanted to step down while I was in it, and of course, after stepping down, there's lingering moments of emptiness as well. And that's probably the thing that made me learnt the most throughout these two years, about leadership, about responsibility and about being a person in general. Things happened within exco, things happened within council, and I constantly felt stretched and lost. Perhaps it's because I'm more than often not the participant of the conflict, I became an observer for most, and as a result, knew a lot, heard a lot, and felt obliged to take action at times. Well, before I move on, I have to apologise for perhaps a lack of active involvement in council and now, I'm not going to give anyone or myself any excuses so just sorry. Within and without, things have been bittersweet. And I want to thank the 17th exco - ruth, glen, gregory, hans, cecil and martin - as well as celeste for this entire journey, and for keeping me there no matter how things screwed up and how down I felt. And once again, before I conclude this, I just have to add this liner here to remind myself and those who know about that thing that happened which cause someone to say I've low EQ and which caused the whole exco to be against me for a moment probably in time. And for that, I really have to thank ivan for getting me through that whole event, though we can't talk much anymore, though i will sms you some day. :D

Moving on, there's the rest of the commitments. Harmonica was fun, though I've been slacking for the whole first year. Syf training was hell, and though we still think it's unfair that everyone got silver, but it was nevertheless an experience. And there's resonance as well, where les amis was a group together. So for these, I want to thank the ex-section 1, current section 3, les amis for everything, especially sinchi, chunyin and bobby :D thank you lots. As for the rest of the commitments, perhaps I should just say that wushu was really fun, as always and I've never ever regretted joining wushu, though I frequently doubted myself for my abilities and the senior's expectations. And the competition was really an experience as well. And of course, there's that certain you, and till now, I still feel thankful for my decision back then, because you're just so pure so nice and I wouldn't hurt you even if I am forced to.

Okay, so that's about the 4 years that had passed. The post is perhaps too short to fully describe everything, and perhaps I would do them one by one again. But before I finish up with this post, there's just one last component of my life I need to apologise for, and that's my church. I'm sorry guys for everything that had happened, for causing everything to fall apart, and I'm currently trying very hard to piece back all the broken pieces so help me alright. I'm not about to give myself any excuses but let's just work towards it together. :D Thank you elijah for letting me learn so much about how to be a person, and there's one last thing I need to settle after I finish this post, which is soon. All I can say now is...I probably expect the answer. But wells, it's still better to leave things settled. Oh, and one last thing, congrats fish and daniel for your wedding yesterday. You two have really helped me a lot throughout this, be it knowingly or unknowingly. Thanks to the two of you :D and, yesterday's probably the last help you rendered me in my decision. Thank you :D

dedicated to my friends in vj:

Well, after the literature paper on Wednesday, the 4 years of vj life has ended (apart from bio mcq, which nobody cares), and it's perhaps time to reflect about these fateful 4 years, which I've undoubtedly grown and learned the most throughout my 18 years.

It's probably already irrelevant now as to why I entered vj although I stay at the other side of the island, and also probably irrelevant as to whether I've ever regretted entering vj. And all I can now to the 2 most commonly posed questions throughout the 4 years is, yes, I did regretted but there's no point regretting a decision made so long ago, and while it is true that these 4 years have been hell, tired and heart-wrenching, there are obviously heavenly moments as well. Things always come together don't they? If you have never ever experienced sorrow, you will not know the joy of joy.

So, 4 years ago (almost), I entered vip in a totally naive mind, not knowing what I want, not knowing anything, and just dashing into it, cause everyone told me to. And well, be it cultural shock (sounds weird) or whatsoever, I really didn't like vj initially. But well, things happen and yeah, osvot became the most united ip class till now :D So thank you very much, osvot for being there these 4 years, especially andrea andrew bryan pig yeo and kevin and sheng chow (though friendships do drift apart, and I'll think about how to resolve this after this post). Perhaps it's the feeling that no matter what hell you're in, you're never alone, and that keeps people going. And of course, there's always the occasional breaks that I give myself when I felt I deserve it (which is so often), and then there's always andrea to thank to let me photocopy her notes throughout the 2 years, so much so that a majority of my file is her notes. :P So that two years, have just been cruising along, slacking, truly enjoying learning, and having fun. There wasn't any cca commitments (because I really didn't care about infocomm) and there wasn't anything to be responsible about (oh, I just remembered I was osvot's secretary for ip2 and that was nice to, shall elaborate later), everything was purely fun.

And before I conclude the life of these 2 years, there's probably something else I need to add, that dominated that 2 years of my ip life. It's something that I haven't been honestly admitting and something that has just been buried and hidden away since a long time ago, but after yesterday, I guess I can conclude that we can start being friends again, so everything's over. Well, all I have to say is...apart from academics, if there's something that made me learn the most in the 2 years, it's that relationship. Well, we had joy, we had fun, and yeah, no matter what happened, it's time to embrace the past, smile at it when you think about it, and be friends again. (:

Okay, with that, the 2 fun years where we had T33 as our classroom is over, and we became nomads, migrating from one classroom to another, and that's S33 for you. Well, similarly, I have to say that initially I really didn't like the class as well. Perhaps it's the responsibility as a CT rep, or perhaps it's just the linger of ing moments osvot in my mind that makes S33 never good enough, but well, S33 and osvot was really different, and being a leader in osvot was pure fun, while being a leader in S33 is bittersweet. So there was all the complaints about how the class wasn't taking the "class spirit" into their hands and leaving it to all to me to be complained at and to take charge. But well, we improved and yeah, I really do have great friends in S33 (: And escape was fun as well. Okay, here, a thank you to S33, especially joanne, shermaine, leanne, zhiyang, chongwai, nicholas :D

And then, in the fateful jc years, of course, there was a hell lot of other things other than the class to worry about: ct council, harmonica, wushu, nav, nuh, new hope, church, etc. The combination of everything impended everything else from progressing, and life was just simply persevering on, and going on everyday, hoping to be recharged, hoping to take a break soon, and just telling myself, everything will be over soon. And now reflecting back, it's certainly right of me not wanting any leadership positions in ip, after having a taste in secondary school. It's tiring, though you undoubtedly learn a lot from there.

So, starting with ct council. Being an exco member in ct was seriously hell and heaven. I so much wanted to step down while I was in it, and of course, after stepping down, there's lingering moments of emptiness as well. And that's probably the thing that made me learnt the most throughout these two years, about leadership, about responsibility and about being a person in general. Things happened within exco, things happened within council, and I constantly felt stretched and lost. Perhaps it's because I'm more than often not the participant of the conflict, I became an observer for most, and as a result, knew a lot, heard a lot, and felt obliged to take action at times. Well, before I move on, I have to apologise for perhaps a lack of active involvement in council and now, I'm not going to give anyone or myself any excuses so just sorry. Within and without, things have been bittersweet. And I want to thank the 17th exco - ruth, glen, gregory, hans, cecil and martin - as well as celeste for this entire journey, and for keeping me there no matter how things screwed up and how down I felt. And once again, before I conclude this, I just have to add this liner here to remind myself and those who know about that thing that happened which cause someone to say I've low EQ and which caused the whole exco to be against me for a moment probably in time. And for that, I really have to thank ivan for getting me through that whole event, though we can't talk much anymore, though i will sms you some day. :D

Moving on, there's the rest of the commitments. Harmonica was fun, though I've been slacking for the whole first year. Syf training was hell, and though we still think it's unfair that everyone got silver, but it was nevertheless an experience. And there's resonance as well, where les amis was a group together. So for these, I want to thank the ex-section 1, current section 3, les amis for everything, especially sinchi, chunyin and bobby :D thank you lots. As for the rest of the commitments, perhaps I should just say that wushu was really fun, as always and I've never ever regretted joining wushu, though I frequently doubted myself for my abilities and the senior's expectations. And the competition was really an experience as well. And of course, there's that certain you, and till now, I still feel thankful for my decision back then, because you're just so pure so nice and I wouldn't hurt you even if I am forced to.

Okay, so that's about the 4 years that had passed. The post is perhaps too short to fully describe everything, and perhaps I would do them one by one again. But before I finish up with this post, there's just one last component of my life I need to apologise for, and that's my church. I'm sorry guys for everything that had happened, for causing everything to fall apart, and I'm currently trying very hard to piece back all the broken pieces so help me alright. I'm not about to give myself any excuses but let's just work towards it together. :D Thank you elijah for letting me learn so much about how to be a person, and there's one last thing I need to settle after I finish this post, which is soon. All I can say now is...I probably expect the answer. But wells, it's still better to leave things settled. Oh, and one last thing, congrats fish and daniel for your wedding yesterday. You two have really helped me a lot throughout this, be it knowingly or unknowingly. Thanks to the two of you :D and, yesterday's probably the last help you rendered me in my decision. Thank you :D