Thursday, December 31, 2009 @ 9:27 PM
Blog.
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Me, Or Not
dedicated to you:
Recently, I found myself a new pet, named "me".
Thinking twice, perhaps it isn't that new afterall.
"Me" has been with me all along,
Except that recently, I seem to not understand "me".
While it is true that "me" has always been introverted,
"Me" always listened to me when I asked it to go out.
"Me" does not like it when others get disappointed,
So "me" always gave in to invitations and went out.
But recently, "me" changed.
"Me" learnt a new skill known as rejection.
"Me" has decided for itself to not go out anymore.
"Me" has recently turned a hermit, turning everyone down.
I don't know why "me" has decided to not bother.
I can feel the sense of guilt coming from "me".
But "me" seems really determined this time round.
"Me" appears not to know why it's doing so as well.
I think it is not that "me" does not want to go out.
"Me" is okay with going out, that's what I think.
"Me" is still open to invitations and going out.
But somehow nothing appeals to "me" anymore.
Whatever appeals, I cannot provide for "me".
And whatever I asked, "me" does not want.
Maybe "me" no longer knows what appeals anymore.
I don't know who is "me" anymore.
____________________________________________________________________________________________________I'm sorry to all those whom I turned down these days.I really really don't want to go out.And no one would really understand why.I think I've been like that all along,Just less obvious.Oh well, whatever.No one would understand.Perhaps you will, but you wouldn't care.